To the woman he said, "I will make your pains in childbearing very severe; with painful labor you will give birth to children. Your desire will be for your husband, and he will rule over you."
I blame Eve for everything I go through!!! If she wouldn't have eaten that stupid fruit, life would be so much easier. I would have loved to have gone through childbirth without the pain. I would have loved to have Steven a "normal" child. I would love to not be in pain because Steven was mad last night and this morning and made to let me know about it. IT ALL EVE'S FAULT.
Ok, my hissy fit is over. Please do keep Steven in prayer though as he is not a happy boy right now. I was talking to someone this morning and told them that Steven had a rough night and morning. They asked if the weather affected him. I said no, but the change in the month does. They gave me a confused look. I explained that when it becomes a new month Steven's desire to go camping gets greater. We have a dry erase calendar we use to help Steven know what is happening. We redid the calendar this morning and I put up my markers. He pulled one back out and tried to hand it to me while saying camping. I told him no, I don't know that we will camp in May. I actually thought I would get hit for that, but he let me put the marker up and move on. This has been the worst bedtime and morning since the district took back over driving him. Which started in April. Praying he gets it out of his system soon.
Of course, with all that said, I can't imagine my life any different. My son is such a joy to be around until he gets really mad. I love getting his hugs and him saying that he loves me. I love seeing that beautiful smile of his. I love my boy PERIOD!
I have been fighting my anxiety and depression the past several days as well. I have to make sure and keep my self moving as to not fall back into the pit of depression. My mind was so empty this morning, I couln't even give Bryan an answer of if I wanted to go out for breakfast or not. I didn't want to get up today, but I went up to the Master's Hands and ended up at the Newton location. I know even giving in one day to staying in bed could be detremental. It is so important to be around people, just in small groups.
Take care and God bless,
Sherri
The calendar
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